"Yeah," she answers, at first. "It's not the same, but... Well! I get, maybe, also hoping that things wouldn't turn out as they did. Or wondering if there wasn't more you could have done?" She's trying to commiserate but not make it all about herself.
"For me, it was kind of... My partner back home could be difficult. Stubborn. Angry, even." She knows. She knew then, too, but it was easier to deal with when in the midst of things. It was also easier to deal with when it was just her. "It wasn't as bad when I first met him, but the longer things went on then the more stressed he got and the more he lashed out. I kept thinking I could do something to help or have things go back to the way they were but- I couldn't."
And she sometimes still wonders if that isn't a failing on herself, but- Again! This isn't about her.
"Which is kind of comforting sometimes, I guess is what I'm trying to say. Maybe things would have always ended that way? No matter what I did. And you did all that you could as it happened, which is all anyone could have and anything else might have not changed things either. I'm kind of rambling, I guess, but! I hope that helps a little."
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"For me, it was kind of... My partner back home could be difficult. Stubborn. Angry, even." She knows. She knew then, too, but it was easier to deal with when in the midst of things. It was also easier to deal with when it was just her. "It wasn't as bad when I first met him, but the longer things went on then the more stressed he got and the more he lashed out. I kept thinking I could do something to help or have things go back to the way they were but- I couldn't."
And she sometimes still wonders if that isn't a failing on herself, but- Again! This isn't about her.
"Which is kind of comforting sometimes, I guess is what I'm trying to say. Maybe things would have always ended that way? No matter what I did. And you did all that you could as it happened, which is all anyone could have and anything else might have not changed things either. I'm kind of rambling, I guess, but! I hope that helps a little."