Even in Amani, which she doesn't remember, she found nearly every change to her to be frightening to start. It was only through the support and enjoyment of it with her partners that she usually found comfort in them, but- That wasn't really a healthy approach either, was it? Rather than find it attractive herself, she'd find it attractive because they did. She wants someone to find these parts about her now similarly to be appealing because she just... can't.

"That'd be nice," she sighs. "I know we're supposed to be able to, once this is all said and done, look like we want to again but- Ugh. The awkward in-between stages until then are going to kill me."